Lil Revive - All I Rap About is Death & Despair Lyrics

[Verse 1]Loving myself but it hurts sometimesSuicide note, got it in my mindDrop ten bands, couldn't kill my prideAnd I ride for the fans but it hurts sometimes likeEvery night it haunts me, I just wanna end my lifePick that bottle up again and then I'll run into the knife, saying likeI don't wanna go back home, swear I'm still trapped inside itI don't wanna go back home, my soul, I can't find itAnd all I ever write about is death and despairBut those feelings always fade away, they just don't compare[Chorus]To, you, and to you, I pray to God that you don't runTake one step I'll load the gun, just to fire at my emptiness[Verse 2]Got clean but every day still miss it, crushed up pills really blind my vision2019 worst year of my life but I came right back now I'm back on the grindBack then really thought I had a death wishStill do but this time I won't suppress itSmoked green just to ease the aggressionBut it never gets rid of my depressionLook inside, yeah my soul's all blackNever really thought they fucking with me like thatJust a young dumb kid, now that kid got plaquesAnd he burst right through and he got the last laugh like[Verse 3]But no matter my successesThat noose stay tied round my neck, shitTwenty-six, still got so many questionsI feel blessed but it never really set inEvery day I don't wanna wake upBeen so long since I felt loveOne more day, I might draw bloodI don't even wanna try to fix my mistakes[Pre-Chorus]You save me from myself when I get closer to the flamesWhen I'm lost and in the darkness, I still know I'll find a way[Chorus]To, you, and to you, I pray to God that you don't runTake one step I'll load the gun, just to fire at my emptiness