Life's full of ups an' downs homie
Gotta take the good with the bad
Sometimes you wanna take that easy way out
But nah... Can't do that
It might be worse on the other side
Gotta keep strugglin', keep strivin'
Make the best of it while you're here
Even if it is hell on earth...

What am I worth?
Am I more hated or loved?
How am I looked upon by the powers above?
What's in store for me other than war in the streets?
A shot in heaven's lookin' grim
Without remorse in me
No one was forcin' me to live the life I've lived
But the Yoc influence infected my head
I made my own bed, dug my own grave when I die
Cause I refuse to be a slave while alive
I never followed orders, never took commands
Well catch me if you can, I'll be damned if I stand still
Officer killed people that I might've done
Healed people too, but not just anyone
Religiously livin' under the gun
My soul is at the mercy of the father an' son
I search my conscious, for remorse till my heart doesn't sting
I've hurt my homies, an' my family
An' death I will bring
God I warned 'em

[Chorus:]
Tryin to win in this life of sin
Sometimes I wish this life would end
To rid me of this pain an' agony
But who's to say there's brighter days?
There's a chance I'll lay where the fires blazed
So I'm a keep livin' my life how it has to be

Loyalty above all laws
Never turn your back
You chose to live this life
Don't get out becomin' a rat
You knew the consequences before you got caught
But you let your jaw talk when the steel door locks
Hopin' to walk
Even god looks at you ashamed
But He's who created you, so who can He blame?
Where as me, I could blame your ass in a second
Cause you're the type to hop up in the game just to wreck it
So called 'homie', snitch infected
I feel so disrespected
I have no problem leavin' all his bones disconnected
Thoughts of Satan are reflected in my daily routine
So don't take it personally, if I look at you mean
I'm just caught up in the life that I made for myself
As I'm runnin' the streets
My mother prays for my health
Thank God, 80 percent of my thoughts are good intentions
So when I shed my skin please allow me some redemption

[Chorus:]
Tryin to win in this life of sin
Sometimes I wish this life would end
To rid me of this pain an' agony
But who's to say there's brighter days?
There's a chance I'll lay where the fires blazed
So I'm a keep livin' my life how it has to be

(Tryna win in this life of sin)

Where does Blackbird rest?
God does he rest in peace?
Cause he better damn well not rest in misery
I know he did some things that had the police speakin'
But if you send him to hell
What the f**k were you thinkin'?
Regardless when my departure is due
Send me on through
Where the hardest player flames, Blackbird I'm with you
I feel you all around me
Your spirit surrounds me
At times you helped me back from crossin' dangerous boundaries
You enter my dreams, an' let me know different things
Sometimes it takes awhile before I figure out what it means
But I get the picture
You're tellin' me "I'm with ya"
An' I heard you when you whispered
"Sorry 'bout that time I hit ya, Wood"
It's all good, you were stressed out homie
An' at times, I feel you're the only one that know me
An' while you're on the other side, awaitin' my arrival
I'm out here in the jungle challengin' my survival
But I ain't really trippin'
When I go I gotta go
Cause I know you'll be there to greet me at the front door
But in the mean time
Tell Raymond, an' the babies, Alyssa, an' my grandparents
I think about 'em daily, I miss y'all

[Chorus:]
Tryin to win in this life of sin
Sometimes I wish this life would end
To rid me of this pain an' agony
But who's to say there's brighter days?
There's a chance I'll lay where the fires blazed
So I'm a keep livin' my life how it has to be

Tryin to win in this life of sin
Sometimes I wish this life would end
To rid me of this pain an' agony
But who's to say there's brighter days?
There's a chance I'll lay where the fires blazed
So I'm a keep livin' my life how it has to be

Tryna win in this life of sin

Tryin to win in this life of sin
Sometimes I wish this life would end
To rid me of this pain an' agony
But who's to say there's brighter days?
There's a chance I'll lay where the fires blazed
So I'm a keep livin' my life how it has to be