I'm gnawing on the knowledge that I have been burnt,
And I'm learning things that I should've already learnt.
Everyone I ever knew was so kind and coy...
I was with a girl, but it felt like I was with a boy.I can't even remember if we were lovers, or if I just wanted to...
But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms,
I held her in my arms but it wasn't you.I will not kill the one thing I love -- in this world of wreckage, I look above.
Help me, Lord -- Help me understand what it means to be a boy and what it means to be a man.
I can't even remember if we were lovers, or if I just wanted to...
But I held her in my arms, I held her in my arms,
I held her in my arms but it wasn't you.