Chris Gauge - Cyan Lyrics

[Verse]I know niggas stab your back even if they your brother I know bitches break your heart, even if you might love herI know the times passing fast and memories get to fading I know niggas that hated will be there if I make itAnd they all on my dick never when I wasn't on shitBefore, we was lit when they wouldn't acknowledge the cliqueAnd all the issues I had when all I was doing was badMy nigga was a scholar before he got booked for a bag And I was so lost; its like all I was doing harm I can't forgеt when I watched that girl die in my arms In hеr last breath, she said, "I love you" as she left My only regret is never sending her mother a text Like my phone don't work, like her heart don't hurt Like she wasn't the person that fell in love with her first And I'm just some nigga with pride that's too big to fucking swallow And a heart that's hollow trying to fill it with empty bottles But fuck it, I'm not the type to complain I always felt it makes you lose more than you gain But Grims, in pain, said somethings wrong with his brainWe both look at the bigger picture, but I don't see it the same I see your passion and you got a heart that's bigLooking for love you said you want a wife and a kidAnd it's obtainable I got that kinda faith in you Don't be afraid to leave what you know to try something new Feeling stuck now? How you feel alone in a crowd But I know your mother's looking down, and she's so fucking proud Of her son and how we both bleed through the speakersOn everything, I'll forever be my brother's keeperAnd though this isn't a game, we all go through stages As each chapter closes, we look at different pages My options weight on a scale and every day it tilts Suicidal but still suffering from survivors guiltI hate that the ones I lost, I can't remember their faces Makes me feel like our friendships were us going through phases Like my ex's, that made love a four-letter wordNever wanted to complicate us just  wanted shit to work But you still put me second and acted like you were so hurt When you were out fucking niggas to go get high off perks And said the baby was mine well why the fuck did you lieI swear I cried so hard I wished to God you would dieYou put fire in my soul and filled my heart with rage It took me some years to finally take time to change I feel the walls closing in, but that's nothing too new And if anything happens, I love you