I keep telling myself its just not in my hands(this seems outta my hand man)For losing you slowly was just not in my plan(this wasn't supposed to happen like this)I look to the sky sometimes, just hoping you're there(i don't think shes coming back this time)hoping you're there (not this time)Cause every time I pick up a pen its all youand there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us twopages turn so fast like all those pages doyour words that bleed throughyour words that bleed throughGet back in my arms and just hanging by my sidelosing hold of you has left me drytell me where you run to and where do you hideknow you've never once left my mindTell yourself I'm sorry for these things that I've doneoh tell yourself never seen that love that gone notell yourself its over now and not to runjust tell yourself I'm sorry for what I've doneCause every time I pick up a pen its all youand there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us twopages turn so fast like all those pages doyour words that bleed throughyour words that bleed throughListen while I'm talking, I don't do it too muchcan't help feeling that came between uswhatever happened to the way that it wasOne thing I cant have is what I wantWho decided its gonna end up this waywho decided that you could not stayyou wont be here by the end of my daycause i cant even listen to words that i sayBut every time I pick up a pen its still youand there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us twopages turn so fast like all those pages doyour words that bleed throughyour words that bleed through oh e oh e oh.I swear you never really miss it till its half gonethen you tighten up your grip trying to hold ondidn't really appreciate it when its in your armsthen you can relate to every word in your songlike was i wrong but i know I'm rightbut in hindsight, I blame the limelightmaybe i just needed time to get my mind rightmaybe we'll reconnect when the times rightI'm trying to think about the causeswas i too bossy exactly where the fault is?I was told to step in love with some cautioncause love and shit is no difference in the darknessbut love is where the heart isyou can see the blood as its dripping through the gaussesSo i guess I fell outta love with a smile and more love with applause'sAnd its quiet in my houseyour silence is my homeand everything reminds methat I am all aloneIts quiet where you used to beand now that you're gone, there's not a sound, there's not a word but a dail tonewell its quiet when I'm drinkingits quiet when i smokeits___ when I'm eating, always I sleep all aloneits quiet now it's louder than i sit still like a stoneonly from my dreams where you wont goevery time I pick a pen its all youand there beside me in my mirror, all i can see is us twopages turn so fast like all those pages doyour words that bleed throughdon't pick up that pen, no I, all I saydon't look in the mirror, at all I amthe pages turn, the pages burnand its all cause of you(it was tears that were soaking these pages,words that left me bleeding and pleading?)How did i get in this predicament?was I influenced by the benefitscause I was hitting on so many chickslovin' you and leavin' you was the only sentimentbut I guess I wasn't ready for yacause I'm rubbing your feet, cooking spaghetti for yataking you to parks winning teddy's for yabut in my heart I'm thinking there's someone better for yabut my hearts like 'no not this again'cut it out black, you know how this will endand I swear I really was listeningbut my dick was yelling and my heart was just whisperingso you know who I listened tonow my hearts bitching cause hes missing yougot my eyes staring at some old flicks of youwhen my nose swears that it can still smell the scent of youand my soul is saying damn she was meant for you(aw oh oh)and my soul is saying damn she was meant for you(losing a part of myself now)and my soul is saying damn she was meant for you(and I'm losing myself now)and my soul is saying damn she was meant for you(aww)I've been wondering, watchingI've been waiting so longI've been talking, I've been listeningI've been playing my songI've been hoping you'd would be leavinghonestly you're notI'm not with you,but i miss you...