[Verse 1 - Novatore]



Been looking rocky for the last few weeks

Too many minutes spent together man I think I need some peace

She got me acting wild, violent, and sloppy

Wish that somebody could stop me from this romance with a beast

My hate of self increased I feel it every week

Because i wish that I could be free but I just can't compete

With how she makes feel when i don't feel real

Concealing my emotions with a taste when I don't feel well

I've got to fight it, I know I can

I've gotta think about the days before day that we began

And try to understand that this only mental

Sentimental thoughts are harmful like utensils to your temple

It took a couple of days but finally found the strength to say

That is it so pack up your shit and look the other way

I take it day to day and thats just how it be

And it get lonely often times but yo i think I'm finally free



[Chorus - Novatore]



I take a drink so I can be myself

20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health

Everything I do is full throttle

Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the fucking bottle



I take a drink so I can be myself

20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health

Everything I do is full throttle

Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the fucking bottle



[Verse 2 - Novatore]



She thinks I need her better believe I'm getting anxious

Cuz this crowd is overwhelming but I got no place to go

She gazes at me, sadly, know shell make me happy

But this temporary love will melt away like Florida snow

I let her know that it was over many months ago

But every now again I think she senses when Im weak

Hard to speak and isolated looking empty

Dreamt she left me to my own but that was only in my sleep

I'm in so deep that I can hardly see the surface

When I suffer by my lonesome yo I wonder whats the fuckin purpose?

I don't deserve this sick co-dependent sentence

Sick of serving it deserving something better or maybe not

But do I got a choice? I'm haunted by the voice

I ain't the only she boy she fucks, she won't be happy til I drop

Its gotta stop and yo I know this for this for a fact

But I cave for sin and drink her in she whispers welcome back



[Chorus - Novatore]



I take a drink so I can be myself

20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health

Everything I do is full throttle

Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the fucking bottle



I take a drink so I can be myself

20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health

Everything I do is full throttle

Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the fucking bottle

[Verse 3 - Nightwalker]



Almost nothing to say I haven't said before

I don't even feel like getting out my bed no more

My attendance is very poor, and conversations

Cuz who the fuck am I pretending for?

No one listens they just wait to speak

And I work too many days a week

How can I love you if you don't hate police

Not even happy when I'm rapping or i'm making beats

People that I loved became strangers

No one cares about you or repays favors

I expect the worse from everyone

Watch beauty turn to darkness like a setting sun

You can protest violence or you can get a gun

Make excuses, put it off, or just get it done

I don't really fuck with anyone

You turn into a piece of shit the second that you friends with one



[Chorus - Novatore]



I take a drink so I can be myself

20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health

Everything I do is full throttle

Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the fucking bottle



I take a drink so I can be myself

20 later and i'm wasted never mind my health

Everything I do is full throttle

Sometimes i feel like its the rope of the fucking bottle