Vin Jay - Break Down Lyrics

[Chorus]Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my painBattlin' the demons in my mind all dayEither I'm fucked up or I'm insanePop a pill, have a drink, don't break downHey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my painBattlin' the demons in my mind all dayEither I'm fucked up or I'm insanePop a pill, have a drink, don't break down[Verse 1]Let's flash back to a moment in timeWhen I was just a troubled youth tryna cope with his mindWith psychedelics, cocaine and some smokin asideWhen I was broke and overdosed and was hopin' to dieYeah, I guess the damaged of feelin' fuckin' abandonedLeft me torn so I was slammin' like every drug I was handedI managed 'til I ran out then ravaged through my dad's houseGather all my shit so I could sell it for a bag nowI couldn't tell that I was losin' myselfAnd that the drugs only added to confusion I feltAnd when the homies hit me up I was refusing to help'Cause I was busy tryna make a fuckin' noose with a beltBut I was lonely and sick of feelin' depressedI was runnin' out of options and ways to cope with the stressI thought I'd feel bliss when the reaper came to collect'Cause I'm done with the painId rather hang to my death and say[Chorus]Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my painBattlin' the demons in my mind all dayEither I'm fucked up or I'm insanePop a pill, have a drink, don't break downHey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my painBattlin' the demons in my mind all dayEither I'm fucked up or I'm insanePop a pill, have a drink, don't break down[Verse 2]I never thought that my life would end when I'm seventeenNow I'm writing notes to my family I thought I'd never leaveBut all this pain I've been feeling, it's time to set it freeTime to turn this torturous life of mine to a severed dreamI waited 'til it was late and family was sleepin'Was thinkin' 'bout deathI wasn't thinkin' 'bout 'em grievin'I thought that when they read the note they'd understand my reasonsSo I crept downstairs, time to finally conquer my demonsI grabbed the booze plus a bottle of pillsRan 'em back up to my room feelin' hollow with chillsWasn't nervous, I was ready, I was confident stillPut a dozen in my palm and started poppin' to killYeah, I'm finally doing it, time to call in the eulogistI got what I deserved, I took my life and I ruined itThirty minutes later my feelin's started to fadeWent from fallin' out of love to fallin' into my graveI'm gettin' woozy and passin' out in my bedI was fadin' in and out, a few moments away from deathBut somethin' in my stomach was travelin' up my chestI just fell to the floor and started puking up redAnd now the medicine is coverin' my handsThey were drenched in itThis is not the way that it was plannedI crawled to my bed, I was barely able to standThis is not what I intended, I got myself in a jamI fucked up, I was broken and weakI never wanted to die, I wanted a moment of peaceFelt my heart skip a beat when I woke from my sleepThe next day and saw the suicide note at my feetAnd thought[Chorus]Hey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my painBattlin' the demons in my mind all dayEither I'm fucked up or I'm insanePop a pill, have a drink, don't break downHey, livin' like a mess, tryna numb my painBattlin' the demons in my mind all dayEither I'm fucked up or I'm insanePop a pill, have a drink, don't break down