Momma praying for meGrandma praying for meSatan preying on meJesus waiting on me'Cause I've been straddling the fence it's time to make decisionsI've been thinking about Heaven lately, don't think I'll get in'Cause I've been going back and forth I love the way I'm livingBut I hate it at the same time 'cause I know I'm sinning!And I don't want to be like them hypocritical ChristiansSo I stay away from Jesus completely 'till I'm ready to give HimEverything, but that seems like it'll never happenMy girl coming over later, you know what's about to happenThen after some smashing I'm sitting there askingIf eternity in Hell is worth some moments of this satisfactionMan I'm so back and forth!I'm back and forth like a tug of warI've been fighting for my life, like I'm trying to get my life rightAnd I really want more, and I don't knowBack and forth like a tug of warAnd I've been fighting for control, and fighting for my soul and this is warI've got two choicesBoth require painOne's the pain of change or the pain of staying the sameOne of them leads to joyOther one leads to shameOne of them leads to freedom the other one keeps me in chainsI wear a cross and give you thanks for my blessings! Ain't that enough?!Why you want everything?! Can't you leave this part of my life untouched?!I thought following you meant I only had to say yes once!Now every day I wake up you give me some cross to take up!You really want me to break up with my girl? Now that's too much...I know what's best for me!You don't understand my complexities!See I gotta make a living so don't ask where my checks come from!Now I hear you talking, I ain't gone numb!I know I'm in the dark and I gotta find my way to the Son, 'cause He calling on my name and I know I can't run...I'm so back and forth...I'm back and forth like a tug of warI've been fighting for my life, like I'm trying to get my life rightAnd I really want more, and I don't knowBack and forth like a tug of warAnd I've been fighting for control, and fighting for my soul and this is warI drown on broken heartsA man full of regretsThe thrill has left, the empty promises of sin setsYou wanna put treasure inside my hands, but you cease'Cause they're clamped, holding on the sins I won't releaseI don't know how to start loving you, and stop doing what I'm doing if I gain you tell me what I'm really losingYou have to change me and my sins I'd never choose HimMy heart needs to see something greater than what I'm pursuing soIs it true that you give rest to the weary? Can you accept and repair me?Do you hear me? It's so clear and now it's painfully apparentThat I can't have my sin and my Savior, they're not for sharingAnything that I lose to follow you is not a lossMy girlfriend my friends my money even my jobBut sometimes I believe the lieThat God don't provide for His child when they obey, that's so crayHe calling me to freedom, I think that it's time to walkI don't see every step but the next is out of the darkI'm the filthiest of them all, but I'm YOURS if you wash me!From that sin, by the blood of that cross!I'm yours